Writing background music.
Check.(Study on Spotify)
Check. (Good in-between time of not hungry and time to start dinner.)
Check. (Blog about last weekend's writing retreat.)
Great! Everything I need. Plus:
Excuse to procrastinate.
Check. (My blog layout is ugly and outdated.)
I know what this is. Procrastination is Perfectionism. And Perfection is a big fat lie, kind of like the "thigh-gap" or "invisible pores." Sure, there may be a few women out there who really look like the images we see in the magazines, but most of the time, the pictures we see are the gift of photo-shop artists.
Like the magazine model who prepares for a shoot by dieting, working out, and buffing her skin with a sander, I prepared for my writing time by mixing up my drink, clicking on my music, and sitting down. That's all we both need, right? The muse will come to me and I will peck away at the keys, creating a fantastic piece of writing. The model will convey at least 15 different emotions into the camera, complete with a different outfit for each, leaving the photographer with at least 100 usable photos.
Before I even started, I took a look at my blog and decided this website was not ready for any kind of muse. It was as if my imaginary model checked herself on the way to the shoot and found a brand new zit on her forehead.
No, this will not do at all.
But here's the thing, if you want to get started with anything; if you want to move forward at all; you have to DO THE THING, no matter what real or imagined thing is in the way.
The model may sweep her hair over the zit, or use more makeup-- but the photographer may need a shot with her hair up, anyway. It will still work.
I may make a few little changes to the layout of the blog, but still not love it. I'll write anyway.
For me, it's not about the perfect blog post (as you can see, if you are still reading this). It's about doing the writing. Practicing getting to the page more often, and even sharing, no matter that it could be better.
There will be time to create a new website, just like there will be time for the photo-shoppers to tend to my model's blemish. For now, I will get some words up onto my lonely blog as a reminder to myself that once I hit publish, it's not going to be perfect.
And that is okay.